Treasure

Trying to write,I feel breathless today,

Hard to restore,but thoughts fading away.

Closed my eyes,find her sitting beside river,

Oh! the holy river holds her in arms,

And wind whispers sway sway.

Drowning self into its purity,

My spirit dazzles like sun rays.

Wandering thoughts,reason my feelings,

And I am walking on its rational way.

The echo of glittering voice in the valley,

makes people wonder,

real treasure here lays,

yeah, real treasure here lays.

My harmony

Once, I had everything,
caring family,cheerful siblings,
and a loving friend
But,I was not in peace,
yeah, I was living solitary

Among those beautiful people,
I found myself nowhere
Searching myself between lanes,
streets and roads,
I found myself lying across the beach
Waves were touching my feet
and someone was there too
But  I didn't need all of these
I wanted to be left alone
I was not in peace,
I was living solitary

Monsoon came skipping winters,summers
I looked upon the sky,
It rained heavily
showered me and my desires
I looked around,
there was no one left
It was me alone,
clock had just ticked once
and now it has stopped.
For a while,I felt thunder of happiness
filling me inside
I searched and searched
and found myself only
Watched my shadow in the shallow water of rain
A pinch of sensation shivered my body
I met with my being
I collage my identity into snaps of colourful polaroid
Then I closed my eyes.
I am in peace
I am soulful
I am living in Solomon.

Kyun

Kyun roke hue hu mai swaym ko,
Kyun bandhi hui hu moh ke dor se,
Kab tak swaym ko paraya karti rahungi dusro ke liye,
Kya mera koi auchitya nahi hai.
Kaisi raat me soi hai meri chetna.
Ab to jaago bhor hui hai,
Nadi ki kalkal shor se jagi hai,
Chidiyo ki chahchahat se asmaan bhi,
Mand mand muskura raha hai.
Baheliyo ka ek jhund us oud se aaraha hai.
Parantu,
Swachhand man ke shor se o bhi dara dara hai.
Aaj mera mann bhi abhimani bana hua hai,
Sare bandhan tod,inhi panchhiyo sa gunguna raha hai.

मैं एक मुसाफिर

अपना आसमान ढूंढ़ता हु  मैं ,पर मंजर कहीं  नहीं है,

एक अजब सी  बेचैनी है ,पर चैनोअमन कहीं नहीं है.

ख्वाईशें अब उभरी उभरी सी हैं ,पर साथ किसी का नहीं है

कदमो तलें ,ज़िन्दगी हैरत है,पर अपना कारवाँ कहीं नहीं है

आहट सुन जो दौर पड़ी है,मुस्कान होठो से,
रास्तो पर खिलखिला रही है,मुझे क्यूँ सता  रही है

कब से इस अनजान सफ़र का अधुरा मुसाफिर मैं ,इक तलास में सदियाँ गुजार दी है ,  

सूखे गले से भींगी वो बाते,निकली तो, पर गीत कहीं नहीं है .

 खुश  हूँ कि इस गुमनाम शहर  में कोई मुझे जानता नहीं है,

खुद से दो बातें तो हो जाती हैं,जो अक्स भूलने लगा था,उससे मुलाकाते तो हो जाती है.

सो लेता हूँ चैन से मैं,इस उमस  सी रात में ,पर बरसातें कहीं नहीं हैं,

कुछ पिघल जाता है,खामोसी बनकर,पर  दर्द दूर दूर तक नहीं है.
आज चल पड़ा हू जिन  रास्तो पर, कितनी तन्हाईयाँ है,

पर मुझसे जुड़ी ये कैसी आवारगी है जो हँस कर निकल जाती है

शुकून दे जाती है,लहरों से मिलकर मेरी ही परछाईयाँ गुदगुदी कर जाती है

आवाज़ दू मैं  खुद को और फिर ओ मुझे दे आवाज़,ऐसी बदहवासी कहीं नहीं है
चलो आज गुजर जायें  इन्ही गलियों से, खुद को आबाद कर दे,
जो समय रेत से भरी थी मैंने ,आज मुट्ठी में वो ही नहीं है.

Everything Is Yours

Birds are singing in the valley,
Chirp Chirp Chirp
Chirruping!!!
Strings of Heart glistening in the sun
and chords of sky singing 'malhar'
Innocence is floating in the sky,
My nomadic soul,a wanderer
In the valley of  unknown world,
Meets  daily with anonymous soldier.
Who is mine, no one,
Myself  snatched time and space
From the echoes of  alive,
 Drops of moments!!
Malhar,Malhar, Malhar,
Rhythm!!!
From the clouds of oven,
cooked dreams rains upon me,
Steps tumbled,and
Two little arms of  lone walls hold me.
Knocking on my Door,
Knock ,knock ,knock
Whispers!!!
That beautiful million dollar smile ,
Whispers to me one day,
Be green,Float pearls ,and forget yourself,
Everything is yours.
Pick and decorate them into,
The pack of memories,
The Hallucination of lover,
The Childish summers,
The Intimate thread of Friendship,
The happy and gay Faces.
Ahaa!!!
Let's write our stories on breezes,
like dust floating in the air,
Playing Hide and Seek with rays,
Let's be the reflection of  your Own Self.

Meri Hasi,Teri Yaadein...

Gunguni dhup me simti,lipti

meri baahe,teri khusbu.

Aur,Gupchup khelti lukachhipi

meri hatheli ,teri dhup.

Jaise,Lahro par tairte hum,

Mera aasmaan,teri jameen.

Ghul gaya!!

Halke se patto par, naram bundo me,

Bhingi meri palke, tera badan.

Yun, Najane kitni khamosiya chun laye,

Mere labj ,tere hoth

Han,kirano  par naachte,

meri athkheliya,teri parchhaiya.

Aaa, Dhak mujhe khud se,

Baaris,shawl pahan aai hai,

meri saanse,teri aahe.

Ruk,

Dekh liya aaj,hamne

waqt se kaise lamhe bune,

meri hasi,teri yaadein.....

ONE

I am carved beautifully,

see my black wavyhair,

lustrous eyes,

firm breasts,

Hips,bottoms,

thighs,lips,neckline,

so beautifully designed,

Creation of a SCULPTOR,

Seductive,arousing,

Ahh!!Im stuck in between,

Playng the roles of a Mother,Sister,Wife,

Prisoned in the Household chores,

Sittng near the window, 

Observing the fist of Patriarchy,

Sounds of a HAMMER

And the Buzz of the Metro

I am alone but afraid

Afraid and

complaining complaining 

O SCULPTOR,O SCULPTOR

Random thoughts invading my mind.

Do I need an erection and elongation

of my privates

to walk SAFELY on the Streets of Delhi??

or,Do I need to paint myself with Masculinity,

to show my individuality without Sexual Harassement??

I'm beautiful,I'm rational,

I am like art,

art of power,life,individuality

I am scared I am afraid,only because,

I am Silent

I am not only a silent wave,

I know How to be Tsunami,

I am not poetry on paper

I know,how to ask for my rights

I am not dictates of bangle,

I have my own opinion

I am not a blossoming flower

I am alive fragrance of Change

Wheels of change ,

yeah,folk lore of Belief

Laying down in the mist

Let me explore myself,

a landscape within me,

like the vast open sea,

like the dancing dust in the rays

Liberation Liberation

I am my liberation

I'm your mother,your sister, your wife

But not to be Fucked always,

my stove cooks the Biryani of relations

with the tadka of love and emotions,

Don't understimate it as my weakness

I have a flare for my own Burning Desires

From the clouds of heavy blackness

I know to rain myself in 

every bit of my SELF

My eyes are hypnotic

but mixed with the expressions of 

my own identity

I am not Random,

I'm the ONE

Palke sangini

Raas kare,kitne rango me tu,

aye re jalti bujhti palke sangini,\

Ab to rooh ko jala ja,

kyu karti hai hara hara

duba duba jati hai,

ye gahrai..aah!

aaj jo bhingi mai,

teri saanso se hi ja  khili mai

Neendo se kya hui teri baat 

jo ab mujhse shikwa kar rahi tu

karwate lelekr raat gujari hai

sujhe na kuch, are ab to maan ja

aye re mandir masjid meri,palke bandini

Jaanu,ya na jaanu,par hairan hu mai

sajda sajda ,hai!

tere titliyo se man ki ye udaan,

badi megha megha hai,

Rok le abhi,

najane kaha kaha barse ye,

Mehndi se kajrai aaj tu hai

Kitne juthe muthe sapne dikhayegi

Ye to tu bhi jane,na kuch chhipa tujhse

Na,na na,naanaa

O sunle re khawise ,meri,

aaj baras ja jibhar k,sahra sahra hai

dabe paao k nishan hai

utri jo aaj badlo se,

mahka mahka sab kuch hai.

Kal kal karta ye akelapan

Khidki se reshm dor k tale 

aaungi mai,,

Ruk jaa aaj yaha,kirne hai mutthi me meri

Teri baaho ki bagiya se aa jindagi ko chhupayi

Fir kaahe ko mohe,tu de dosh re,

Aaj mai jali,aaa mujhe bhi chhu le ,

band hote dar par o aashiq aajan diye hai,

sunle uski bhi,paani paani ban ghul ja mujhme.

Jidd na kar chunri bhingoi hai ,

Ahhh!!!

meri bunde bunde,saawan saheli......

Red

Flap, flap, flap,

flap ur wings pigeons,

Heart is yelling 

Peace, peace ,peace 

U whitish whitish,

Symbols of Bloody peace.

Let d desire burn ,

Let d Coal lit ds night,

Night, night ,night,

Day is not gona to come,

Unless u die this storm.

Coward ,coward ,coward,

World might bless u 4 ths 

Bt,wot vl u answer?

O blessed Saint,

Humming beautifully

O Chorous,

sing d songs of Blind

Walk d mountains,

Taste d sweetnes of ur sweat,

Temples vl ring d bell

Whn u walk velvety rugged terrain

Slept?

O dreamy pigeon??

wait,

I m hungry,

My lesioned soul is thirsty

Thought 4 Food is nt enough,

Gv me d real u,

can't hold ths white more,

Give me Red.

Before the doors get closed

Aftr seeking sex,

My thoughts are left on stained island..

thy walk al alone,covering a distance btwn tym nd space..

Introduced to love bites,as they stepped furter,

tired but blessed,smiling from d bushes..

Ideas were crushd nd smells magnolia magnolia,

as longing 4 desire desire,

Urged nd kissed d subconscious thread of intimacy,

Piercing al beads of sweat aftr seeking d ULTIMATE..

Mirror and mirror all around,bt not a true reflection,

Peeping into d eyes nd asking Salvation salvation....

Oh!its erotica erotica..

Deepng me deepng d illusion,

Took me towards serenity

oh!beauty of d soul

M late ,yeah m gettng late

to reach d shallow depth of my innerness

before d doors get closed.....

Conscience

I seek myself in evry tide and turns 

Search myself in evry face whch I see

Reflections reflections,thy r my reflections.

Devil,Innocent,Pious,Jealous,Trusty,Nasty

Piercing me in bubbles,

Smtyms trampled, Smtyms worn as lace,

War and Peace,No no ,not Tolstoy,

Its me,Its me..

Perhaps each one of me, on behalf of each,

Marching to final destination,bt d roads are vague

And here it goes...tug of war ...

an open mind with different views dominating each othr

Creation Creation whr s d creation,

All around it seems like cremation...

I m scared bt I fyt ,I hate myself bt I admire 

I show I m d happiest,bt I knw I m fake

Somwhr I seek myself,in my subconscious mind

Finally I got myself in my conscience 

Reflections,Reflections,thy r my reflections..

I Know....

Broken words, stammering lines,Don't know whr m driftng,

Floatng wid d flow of stream,Donno ........m nt n myself,

Hey stop me,I m running wid my Blind eyes,

Burning Inside several Desires,Let me Bleed,

M nt on d track ,Dancing on d strings of light,

Hey,me on d top of d roof ready to fall freely,

I got it got it dammit,smthng which was cryng widin me,

from d tym being,I donno knw d way,it pinched me hard..

Broken Words,Stammering lines,I knw ,whr m driftng....

zindagi ko hasna sikhaye :)

Kal se milkar aai thi aaj ,chupke se bandhe suro ke sargam ko gun gun aai thi aaj

waqt ki bhawaro se lad kar aai thi,mud mud kar kai najro se kheli thi

shaam ko pairo me bandhe ,subaho me dhali thi

kalkal karti nadi k pani ki tarah chali thi , aakar teri baho me lamho si judi thi 

khare pani ki tarah suni suni thi ,tere naino me aakar basi,

neendo se raatbhar jhagdi thi.

Raho me badi dhalane hai,sath tu mere hai,chal utar aayein ..

Jindagi ki khoi khoi vaadiyo me chal gujar jaye...

Mishri se ghuli saath hai, chal ek sadiya bita le..

kal na jane, ye pahar ho na ho...palko ki chadar me saji ye galiya..fr ho na ho ...i

chal inhe yaado se saja le .......

Hawao se pata mang kar tujhse mili mai ,kaali ghatao se suni teri baate jhuthi muthi..

Arre chupke se aawaj to de tu,mujhe fir se pangdandiyo par dhakka to de tu..

tere paon ke nishan haiavi tak,jo maine baadalo ko  pahankar tujhpar udai hai..

kohre ki thandi thandi aachon par,tere kaano me maine kuch ghole hai..

chal chalkar sabko bataye...fr se jindagi ko hasna sikhaye....

Bujha de chal suraj ko,saagar ko ghula de khud me,bana de reshmi har eik muskan ko....

Jamane Gujar Gaye

Halanki,unko dekh kar palti hi thi najar,
Mahsus ye hua,ki jamane gujar gaye.
Ek pal ke liye hamne palke kya jhukai,                           
Vo kisi aur najar ke kayal hi hogaye.
Jinhe sochte the sabse apna,
Vo pal me istarh paraye kar gaye.
Jab hamne samjha liya khud ko,
Rashte me hamare lautkar vo dubara aagaye.
Chah kar bhi ham unhe mana na kar sake,
Aadat se unki istarh tanha tanha hogaye.
Baaho me bhar liya us phul ko bhi,
Jiski kasak hame har katra chubha se gaye.
Fir bhi koi shikwa na kiya,unke har jajbaat ka khayal kiya ,
Hum istarh mohabbat unse bepanah kargaye...

Khud Se Mil Jaane Do

Abhi chhedo na,ki mujhe jal jaane do,
Badi shokh ,naajuk jindagi hai,isme sawar jaane do..
Kuchh sawal hai,unme utar jaane do,
Jo kuch gahra gahra sa hai,unse nikal jaane do..
Kabse bacha k rakhe hai,
Meri jajbaato ko geeto se ghul jaane do..
Resham ke dhaago ki tarah,Najaro me bun jaane do,
Is tarah mujhe khud se mil jaane do………

♥ A War Between Emotions And Loved Ones♥

Surrounded by water all around, I was fighting from strong tides.
No more shores, no more destinations, It was me and my dreamy remnants.
Struggled hard, but it was a long war, where I fought with my loved ones.
There were no blood anywhere, but heart was aching badly,
I was breathing deeply, and my voice was choked somewhere;
I built a dam of stone, to stop the flow of rivers from my eyes.
Now after such a long episodes of emotions, 
I became successful in developing building of attitude,
Made up of stones, concrete, and hard water.
Where there was no place for soft corner…….
But I lost myself along with Him, his presence, his existence..
Now the doors get closed and my life was a brainy existence, like,
large stones on the beach, who had once made home of sands, 
but tides took away everything with them.
life turned and get twisted…....
What left were residuals of 2 and half months memories enveloped forever,
In the paper floating in the ocean , fighting with tides and crests to find its way alone,to enrich,polish and refine the love on hard lines of measurements,with a hope to meet its destination….

Mere liye hi churai hai

Kuch lamho se chunkar lai hai,Ye jindagi,tujhe mere liye hi khudse churai hai..
Kabhi kinaaro par,to kbhi ret ke daaman se lipti kitni yaade sang lai hai..
Tere hi kadmo ki aahte thi o,tabhi to ye sadiya bhi fursato se hokar aai hai..

Tere saanso ki vo shararte thi,jo  tere hotho se hokar mujhe istarh bhingoti thi.. 

Aaj bhi tera ek khayal,mujhe baadlo se bundo ki tarah girata hai,Najane istarah,kitne sehrao ki pyaas bujhata hai..

Jindagi ki sau parchhaiyo me tera ek saaya,mere sang harpal chalta hai,jo meri aankho me aaine ki tarah jalta hai..

Kisi shaam ka noor ho to khudpar odh lena,kal subah ki pahli kiran se aakar meri madham jindagi ko roshani dejana..

Jab dhundhli hone lage meri yaade,yunhi sukhe patto ki tarah,

to raat ko sardiyo ki os banker meri pyaas bujha dena,

Han meri yaado ko apni baaho ki sheetalta se fir se ek baar jaga dena…

 

Uljhe Uljhe

Uljhe uljhe sawalo se paresaan raha karta hai,

Thak kar har shab khud se hi mila karta hai

Anjane rashte hai, aur jane pahachane log,

Kis kis se kahe ,kaha kaha simta rahta hai.

Harain paresaan jb khud ko dekhta hai,

Aaina bhi jhutha,har  jhalak daga deta hai..

Par jb tanha tanha ye rahta hai,

Aaspaas Roshni se dhala karta hai .

Chupke se jo koi khala ho to use rog bana le,

Par ye jakhm sa sine me daba karta hai…

Har rashte par ek naya rashta dekha karta hai

Jindagi ki madham aawaz me

,khud se hi baate kiya karta hai.

Ik sa kuch palo ka dard ho to rok le,

Ye to har pal chubha karta hai,

sambhale si bhi nai jo sambhale ,aisa dard bana karta hai

Let me be yours

In ur arms,Let me live and die,and in ths way,let me be urs...

Let me feel ur warm breath,and in ths way,let me touch ur soul...

In ur hazel eyes,let me lost more and more in u,

and in ths way,Let me wet myself in ur lovely glare..

Let me hold ur hand,nd let me walk wid u,

all along d way of lyf,nd in ths way just let me beside u,if not wid u..

With ur cold snog on my forehead and eyes,let me wakeup myself wid ur
morning,

till d tym my eyes get closed for forever........

In ur shadow,Let me hide myself and let me be You,

Nd in ths way let me be inseperable from u …

Let d leaves of ur memories shed down on me only,

if thy hav to shed themselves,

and in ths way,let me complete myself  each day,wid ur moments 4 tymbeing...

Someday,u might feel me inside yours,

so let me adore myself wid ur loving sensation whch u made me felt once,

wen u kissd me before leaving me alone..

Let me feel d life  filling me wid ur wet cold soft touch ,nd let me flow once again in those days wen I used to lay in ur arms whole day…

Did u remember those days,wen during a movie we used to play with popcorns,

and in our each meetng somethng unexpected and  idiotic thngs happnd...

and due to my nervousness I used to spilldown all d pepsis  nd  thn  wen u used to clean thm,

I just said ,I lykd to wet myself wid evrythng,either rain ,or pepsi..nd thn u smiled.....

Let me keep that lovely smile of urs wid me,for tymbeing,

and in ths way that,let me live those days again and again........

Kabhi Kabhi Dekha Hai

Kabhi kabhi deewaro par shakl bante  dekha hai

Raat ke sannate mein ,shaikro najm bante dekha hai

zamane ki bheed se jb bhi alag hua,

Tanhai ko khud se lipat te  dekha hai.

Jistarah,yaadon ke barf ko,palko se pighalte dekha hai….

Kbhi  hawao ko bhi mujhse saans lete dekha hai,

Ajnabee ehsaaas ko ajnabee rog bante dekha hai

Jistarah,,har subah ,tere saaye ko sirahne jagte dekha hai.

Kbhi khairato me to, kbhi ibaadato me tujhe sang chalte dekha hai.

Ek deep ki tarah,har seher makhmali kiran bante dekha hai.

Panchhiy ke geeto me bhi , teri mishri si baato ke  ghol ko piya hai.

Jistarah rab ki duao me ,apni hatheli ki rekhao ko ,rang badalte dekha hai….